Firefighters are heroes. Sometimes they need rescuing too
Firefighters are heroes. But these heroes aren’t bulletproof. They don’t have superpowers. And some need a little bit of rescuing themselves – and that’s OK.

Firefighters are known for running toward danger when most run away from it.

They see people in their darkest moments. They help people who have no one and nowhere to go. They see the things most people never have — or will.

Many firefighters live daily with post-traumatic stress disorder — and many don’t talk about it, often with deadly consequences. Post-traumatic stress disorder develops in some people who have experienced shocking or dangerous events.

More firefighters died by suicide than in the line of duty last year, according to a study released this past April by the Ruderman Family Foundation. The foundation is a private, philanthropic foundation started in 2002.

Little has been done to address the problem, despite the fact that firefighters are five times more likely than the average person to suffer from PTSD and depression, according to the Ruderman Family Foundation’s study.

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Firefighters have been protecting all of us for so long – helping us when we need a hero most. But who helps the hero? Who saves the hero? (Photo: 9NEWS)
The stigma surrounding mental health

For most firefighters, the desire to help and heal runs through their blood at a young age. Gary Metz was no different. He loved serving his community and never wanted to leave. He started as a cadet in 1976 and served nearly 30 years, eventually becoming a captain.

“I was at a busy station,” he said. “I liked it, but it might not have been a bad idea to get rotated out to a slower station.”

After he retired in 2004, those closest to him began to notice he just wasn’t himself. His children went to his wife once and asked for their “old dad” back, Metz said. For years he wasn’t sleeping, and he thought about suicide and started to isolate himself.

“I was obviously depressed,” he said. “I had a very short temper [and] little stressors would set me off… [I was] angry at my family, wanting to harm myself – that was the bottom. And having those thoughts in my head… which is so unlike what I used to be.”

Metz said it wasn’t one call that triggered him, but rather the calls over three decades. He suffered for years before getting help. He returned from treatment a few months ago.

Melinda Ryan said her husband thought he was heading out to New York to do rescue work. When she questioned him, he was adamant that he’d be rescuing people. He didn’t. Melinda Ryan said that when he returned home, life was different.

“He had a hard time dealing with moving on – reconciling what happened and asking for help… any time you asked him to talk about those things, he would get angry and upset,” she continued. “He would go through spans where he wouldn’t even go to work. He didn’t even want to go to work. He wouldn’t get up, he wouldn’t let go.”

She said he lost his love for the fire service. They tried sleep meds, antidepressants and therapists to help him.

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Steve Ryan (Photo: Courtesy Melinda Ryan)

“I’m texting him and I can’t get ahold of him,” Melinda Ryan remembered. “I get home a little after five and he’s nowhere to be found… his truck is in the garage – now it’s coming to 9 p.m., and now I’m mad because I don’t know where he is… I don’t know what’s going on, so I go to the garage to look for his golf clubs and that’s when I found him.”

She said he’d shot himself in the chest and had been laying in the garage for hours. He’d taken his own life. That was 2014.

PTSD and suicide are topics that shouldn’t be avoided

In 2017, 103 firefighters in the U.S. took their own lives.

Capt. Greg Pixley with Denver Fire said he wants to change the paradigm – firefighters aren’t superheroes. They do need help sometimes – that they’re human, Pixley said.

Firefighters run into danger while the rest of us are running away. They also have to see burning homes, mangled cars and the people inside of them.

When those images build up – become too much – the worst can happen. PTSD and suicide are not new problems within the fire service, but they aren’t regularly talked about.

But that’s changing with a new light being shone on how the rates of suicide superseded line of duty deaths. The conversation among firefighters in Colorado is shifting, and many hope to eliminate the stigma.

For retired Littleton Fire Rescue Battalion Chief Ray Rahne, it’s been nearly 20 years since the worst call of his career. He was first on-scene at Columbine High School on April 20, 1999. He was the incident commander that day, when 12 students and one teacher lost their lives.

“It’s one of those things that I look back on, you know, I had all the signs and symptoms, but nobody knew about it back then,” Rahne explained. “After that, I was really suffering and it took me two or three years, and my wife really trying to convince me that I needed help.”

He eventually sought out therapy, all while fighting back fears of what his fellow firefighters might think, he said. Rahne said he worried about being accepted when he returned to the service, he worried about being fired – worried about getting promoted. After he began managing his PTSD, he made it his mission to change the attitudes firefighters have about mental health and treatment.

“We’re breaking that stigma,” Rahne said. “And that stigma is that firefighters are big tough guys. We’re there to help but we don’t know how to ask for help. Now, we’re teaching our people how to ask for help.”

Pixley with DFD is not only a captain but also the peer support director for the department. “The courageous firefighter is the firefighter who reached out for help,” he said. “We are three times as likely to see a firefighter suicide than a firefighter line of duty death.”

In 2014, the organization National Fallen Fire Fighters did a study that found that firefighters are three times more likely to commit suicide in the firehouse than die in the line of death, according to Pixley. The fire captain said he knows firsthand what happens when someone doesn’t get help.

His wife committed suicide.

He’s started teaching firefighters across the country how to identify the signs of PTSD and to accept seeking treatment as routine as visiting the hospital for a broken bone.

“If we don’t educate ourselves… if we don’t know what to do with those emotions from what we saw the night before – the year before – we can find ourselves in some dangerous situations,” Pixley explained. “Our suicide rates are higher than the general public. Our alcoholism rates are higher than the general public.”

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More information on the International Association of Fire Fighters’ Center of Excellence can be found at this link.

Foundation 1023 helps with the emotional and mental wellbeing of all First Responders. The organization provides confidential funding mental wellness services. Here’s the link.

Colorado Crisis Services offers a talk or text line for anyone who needs helps with anxiety, depression, PTSD and other mental health issues. Available 24/7.

Group of Colorado emergency responders working with the National Mental Health Innovation Center to change the culture around mental health and improve supports for emergency responders and their families. Check out more at this link.

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